Are you one
of my kind? Tell me I’m not the only one. Did it happen to you too, this bug
that bit you and magically transformed you into this feathery treasure hunter?
It certainly happened to me and now I spread my wings and fly out into the
world of wonderful things made of paper, color and great skill. These things are
following me during my day and keep my mind busy, although there is a lot of
stuff that wants to be done, important stuff. Poppycock, could there be
anything so important, so magnificent and illuminating as those treasures that
are like doors into another world?! Mysteries are waiting for you behind those
doors and they want to be experienced,
So Tarot
World Day is over sadly, but I spent it in the most appropriate way…researching
decks and looking out for a new Tarot treat. But as always there was this
feeling of ‘Which deck should I choose?’ that is always bugging me. And not for
the first time I was also asking myself ‘What the heck are you doing here?’.
There is so much else to do and I was lurking for the next deck, although I just
had gotten some new.
And as I was scrolling through my Instagram feed yesterday,
marvelling at Tarot pictures, I stumbled over a spread called ‘Silly Deck
Addiction Spread’ by TarotProse, that a fellow Instagramer found on Facebook and I
thought ‘Oh well this sounds like fun and maybe I’ll get some insights’.
To give you
a bit more details about my feelings regarding my ever growing deck obsession let’s just say
that I’m a little bit worried. Last year I started with just one deck and I’m
up to about 20 now (tarot decks alone). I should have known better, because
since I’m a child I tend to collect things. Whether it were stones I collected
while playing outside (my Mom was not amused finding all those stones in my
trouser pockets) or collecting postcards of favorite illustrators up until this
day, I always was attracted by pretty things, but who isn’t really.
But now I
found a new focus to rest my collector’s eye on: Tarot and oracle decks. There
are simply so many amazing decks by amazing people out there that simply just
want to be collected. Or not? What is this part in me that turns into a magpie every
time I’m getting aware of a new deck?
The time addressing
that in a tarot spread was long overdue for me. So come on tarot, what is my
problem? Why researching all the time? Why do I get thrilled, when I see a deck
that resonates with me? Why do I feel this occupation of the mind, even in
times, when there are certainly more important things to do? Where is the crux
of the matter? Tell me everything, Tarot. Don’t spare me. What is the nasty
truth?
So I shuffled, I cut and I drew the four cards….
I was
gobsmacked and laughed out loud, especially when I saw card number 3 and 4.
Either the deck or my higher self had a good sense of humor. Ok, after all it
was just a spread for fun, but nonetheless it confirmed things that I either
already knew or dreaded facing.
The
Hierophant represented this thirst for more knowledge that is always there when
I ‘scan’ new decks. It is this feeling of finally finding the key to the
ultimate truths that are lying beneath all these layers of meaning in the
cards. This could turn out like the search for the Holy Grail, that one deck
that knows all.
The second
card showed me that money was not the issue, because I only spent those bucks that
were coming from offering my helping support to those, who can’t physically help
themselves anymore.
The Fool
reminded me of myself playing the innocent every time my boyfriend is asking me
how many decks I have and I shrug and simply say that I don’t know. Honestly,
maybe I don’t want to.
Now the
last card really cracked me up and shocked me a bit at the same time. The World, are you kidding me?
I certainly can’t collect them all or at least, when I’m feeling fulfilled.
When will that be? Should I be alarmed? What’s the answer to this?
You want an answer?
Yes, please,
Magpie.
You think you can bear it?
Absolutely
yes.
It’s passion, no more, no less.
